Home coming day

Saturday was homecoming day. Some of our friends who already graduated came to school to see us. It had been such a long time since I saw them. I was really glad to see them again. We enjoyed several glasses of beer having pleasant chats together. Most of them work in the other provinces away from Busan now, so it's not easy to see them often. Some friends left early and the rest of us had another drink. We were going to say good-bye after that, but we felt sorry about it, so we decided to stay over night in a karaoke room. We sang songs for over three hours. We were dismissed at about four a.m. I got home by taxi and went to bed right away. When I woke up, it was eleven thirty. I felt a bit tired, but it was such a good gathering. I'm already missing them. Hopefully, I also have a job when I see them again.

The end of year

I feel that time really flies especially when I look back on the past time. It feels like 2009 has started yesterday, but this year is almost over. It is already the end of November. There is the Korean movie, "2009- Lost Memories". I saw that movie in 2002 when I was a 3rd year of high school student. 2009 was 7 years later than that time, so it felt like it was fairly long future. I vaguely thought I might have a job and be married in 2009 at that time. Reality is quite different, though. I'm still a student and not sure when I'll get a job. I usually feel regret for something that I have not done even though I should have done at the end of every year. Then I make a new plan for the next year, reflecting the thing I haven't fully done this year. It's almost time to make a new plan and refresh myself.

Wearing braces

I started wearing braces at the beginning of August. One day, I felt that my teeth looked so crooked and ugly in the mirror. It was shortly after I pulled my last wisdom tooth out. I became really eager to straighten my crooked teeth, so I suddenly decided to wear braces. My mother strongly disagreed with my idea, though. It was because I was supposed to pull out four small molar teeth to do that. She didn't accept the fact that I had to pull four normal molar teeth out. I managed to persuade her in a week and got a permission, so I began to wear braces at last. It was very painful to set the braces around my teeth. I could hardly eat anything at first. After having a meal, it usually takes me more that ten minutes to brush my teeth. You can guess why. I'm getting used to it. It's true that it's very inconvenient to wear braces, though, especially when eating and talking. It's not as painful as before, but pain has started again because I went to see an orthodontist a few hours ago and he tightened the braces more than before. (I go to see an orthodontist every three weeks.) He said it will take about 3 years to finish straightening my teeth when I started wearing braces. It's around July, 2012. I'll look forward to that day.

Time machine

What if I can get time back with what I know at the moment? Sometimes, I wish like that. Now, I really want to go back to the time right before taking the teacher's exam. I'll be able to get all the answers correct then. If there exists time machine, when do you go back to? There were a lot of moments that I wanted to go back to. When I was fifth grade, I had a crush on the girl in the same class for the first time, but I was too shy to ask her out. I often thought I would have asked her out if I had been able to go back to that moment. Oh, don't get me wrong. I mean I just loved her when I was young. I don't love her any more, ha ha. She is just my friend now. The idea of time machine is just off the top of my head because I regret not studying for the exam as best as I could. Come to think of it, thinking about time machine might have something to do with regretting something. Of course, it might not be true if we want to travel into our future. Anyway, I don't want to regret something anymore..

How do you relieve your stress?

Many people get stress for a lot of different reasons. I'm getting stress because of the study for the teacher's exam nowadays. I usually listen to music to get the stress away, but it doesn't always work. Then I try to see something in a different way, more positively if it is what gives me stress. However, it doesn't work all the time either. The stress tends to go down as time goes by, but is there any effective way to relieve the stress very quickly? It might be a temporary solution if the main source of the stress still exists. Nevertheless, this kind of solution still helps me to refresh myself, so I can face the problem more energetically. How do you get your stress away?

With graduation just around the corner

This is already my last semester in university. It means that my university life is almost over. I can't believe I'm a senior now. Time really flies. I still remember when I was 20. I was a freshman and everything seemed new to me. I felt like I could do anything at that time. Maybe it was because I always had some kind of freedom in my mind and I actually had a lot of spare time then. I lost that kind of freedom, though. Since I came back to Korea from Australia, I think I've been leading so busy life especially doing a lot of school works. I always had to worry about grades after taking the exams and take care of lots of assignments to catch up on. Now, I'm likely to manage to meet the GPA for the early graduation, so I can take the teacher's exam next month, but I'm afraid I've recently got too much stress because of all those things. I'm kind of tired now. I can't single out one thing exactly, but I had many things that I wanted to do before I graduate. I'm running out of time and I have to focus on studying for the teacher's exam for now. I just feel gloomy nowaday. I need to get a life!

What are friends for?

We've been meeting a lot of people as we live. We usually meet our parents and siblings at first. As we grow up, we meet a lot of friends in the neighborhood or in the school. Not all the people we meet become our friends, though. As I mentioned before, people have many different types of personalities. Some people are so easy to go on conversations with that it's possible to talk to each other all day if both have enough time. Why is that? It might be because both people have lots of common topics. Or they might have similar style of personality. The way of their thinking might be almost the same. In contrast, I feel that some people are not that easy to talk about. They seem to have very different way of thinking, so they usually don't support what I say and don't understand how I feel in the certain situation. What kind of person do you prefer to make as a friend? I prefer the former, actually. I would tell my concern to the former and get some comfort from them rather than telling it to the latter who might think I'm stupid because I have such a concern which is not worth worrying about for them.

However, that kind of people are also good friends. They just have a different point of view, which does not mean that they hate me. They often help me to see myself in another perspective so as not to become self-righteous. Nobody wants to hear something bad about oneself, but friends indeed might be the people who are willing to say their friends' faults to their friends franky. To be honest, I really don't like to hear something bad about me, but I think I need to be more generous about candid advice.